ramblings.

Ohh, it’s stuck in my head.

What a fun weekend. I finally took time off on Saturday, and today was the concert.

OHHH, WE SIGHT-READ PEICES AND IT WAS DISGUSING. It made me sad. And my embrochure fell apart. That also made me sad. The TYCW did quite well aside from the sight-reading and the bassoonist. The bassoonist was terrible. Seriously, she needs to go and learn to play her instrument and then come back. (in case you didn’t know, there is only one bassoonist. She used to play contrabass.)

Then we saw Rent! SO GOOD! Saw with Steve and Melissas and Tacha. Struggled like loonies and ran like crazy to get to the theatre on time, fell over each other getting in our seats…”TAKE YOUR INSTRUMENT!” SUCH GOODNESS OF RENT. I’m very happy with how good it was. Aaaah…. We all cried. So touching. Now I have songs stuck in my head that we sang until we all went home. Oh, my crazy CW lovers.

And now I am going to go and do my English.

B a s i c s . .
// name: Kimberley
// birthday: December 25th
//nationality: Jamaican/Irish
//screen name: Unpretty.TopBanana
//hair length: Short.
//hair color: Brownish-black.
//eye color : Brown. Not an interesting brown, mind you. Just…brown.
//piercings: Ears.
// tattoos: none

F a v o r i t e s . .
// color[s]: Purple or burgundy or green.
// perfume: Poison by Christian Dior.
// t.v. show: None.
// movie: None.
// band/singer: None.
// subject: Fashion or Music.
// fruit: Kiwi!
// month: December. (funny how that works.)
// season: Autumn.
// holiday: Used to be Christmas, but now I don’t know.

H a v e Yo u . .
// have you ever smoked? Nope.
// have you ever done drugs? Nope.
// have you ever gotten drunk? Yup ><
// have you ever used someone? Nope.
// have you ever been used by someone? Probably.
// have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have: Ptch, ‘course.

T h e B e s t . .
// best person to talk to: *shrug*
// best relationship: LOVE IS FOR WEAKLINGS.
// best feeling: Not being “happy”, per se… but contentment. Feeling…comfortable.
// best thing in the world: Undiscriminate, unconditional caring and kindness. You didn’t say it had to be tangible.
// best stuffed animal you own: Crack Baby Pooh.
// best thing that happened to you today: Nothing.

T h e L a s t . .
// last time you cried? Saturday past.
// last movie you saw in a theater? Harry Potter and the Goblet Of Fire
// last movie you rented? Umm… I don’t…know. Saw, probably.
// last movie you bought? Nightmare Before Christmas.
// last song you listened to? Something on this CD whose jacket I’ve lost.
// last song you downloaded? Can’t remmeber, was quite long ago.
// last tv show you watched? Umm… Not sure.
// last song that was stuck in your head? Your Body Is A Wonderland
// last person you were thinking of? I forget and refuse to go with the standard answer because LOVE IS FOR WEAKLINGS.
// last person you talked to: Colin D’s dad.
// last person you hugged: Julie, I think.
// last person you kissed: Psh, you figure it out.
// last person you went to eat out with: Matthew! Brown bakery!
// last person you slow danced with: DAVID FRENCH HORN DAVID who taught my akward self how to waltz.
// last person you yelled at: Bassoon. “Vile instrument!”
// last person you called: I don’t know.
// last person who called you: Probably bassoon teacher.
// last person who made you smile? Colin D
// last person who made you laugh? Matthew.
// last person who said they loved you? Serothy, probably

L o v e a n d R e l a t i o n s h i p s . .
// who is your boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? Love is for weaklings.
// what do you first notice in the opposite sex? Eyes/hands.
// are you currently in love? Love is for weaklings.
// first real crush: BAHAHA….shh. We’re not allowed to talk about that.
// last crush: *shrug*
// ideal date: Prr… Dunno.

Put an x if it applies to you
[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[x] I’ve run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I listen to political music.
[x] I have collected comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I’m depressed.
[ ] I watch the news.
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] am guilty oF tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am sometimes self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
[x] I can’t swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I’ve been out of this country.
[ ] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] i am really ticklish.
[x] I’ve seen a therapist.
[x] I love chocolate.
[ ] I sometimes bite my nails.
[x] I play video games
[x] I watch cartoons.
[x] Gotten lost in my city.
[x] Saw a shooting star
[x] Been to any other countries besides the united states
[ ] I had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[x] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[x] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten somebody
[x] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Crashed into a friend’s car
[ ] Been to Japan.
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[x] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Saw someone die
[ ] Been to Africa
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been Skiing
[ ] Been to a motor cross show
[ ] Lost a child (As in, misplaced?)
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[x] Miss someone right now
[ ] Smoked a cigarette
[ ] Smoked a cigar
[ ] Made out with a member of the same sex
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Purposely set a part of myself on fire
[x] Purposely hurt myself
[ ] Been in an abusive relationship
[x] Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
[x] Made a snow angel
[x] Had a tea party
[ ] Flown a kite
[x] Built a sand castle
[x] Gone puddle jumping
[x] Played dress up
[x] Jumped into a pile of leaves
[x] Gone sledding
[x] Cheated while playing a game
[x] Been lonely
[x] Fallen asleep at work/school
[x] Watched the sun set
[ ] Felt an earthquake
[x] Touched a snake
[x] Slept beneath the stars
[x] Been tickled
[x] misunderstood
[x] Won a contest
[ ] Ran a red light
[x]Been suspended from school
[ ]Been in a car accident
[ ] Had braces
[ ] Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[x]Had deja vu
[x] kissed someone in the pouring rain
[x] Hated the way you look
[ ] Pole danced
[x] Questioned your heart
[x] Been obsessed with post-it notes
[ ] Squished barefoot through the mud
[x] Been lost
[ ] Been to the opposite side of the country
[ ] Swam in the ocean
[x]Felt like dying
[x] Cried yourself to sleep
[ ] Played cops and robbers
[x] Recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
[x] Sang karaoke
[x] Paid for a meal with only coins (Only NICKELS, bitches.)
[x] Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t
[ ] Made prank phone calls
[ ]Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[x] Caught a snowflake on your tongue
[x] Danced in the rain
[x] Written a letter to Santa Claus
[x] Blown bubbles
[x]Made a bonfire on the beach
[ ] Crashed a party
[x] Gone rollerskating
[x] Had a wish come true
[x] Worn pearls
[ ] Jumped off a bridge
[x]Screamed penis in public
[x] Screamed vagina in public
[ ] Ate dog/cat food
[x] Told a complete stranger you loved them
[ ] Kissed a mirror
[x] Sang in the shower
[ ] Had a dream that you married someone
[ ]Glued your hand to something
[ ] Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
[ ] Kissed a fish
[x] Worn the opposite sexes clothes
[x] Sat on a roof top
[x] Screamed at the top of your lungs
[ ] Done a one-handed cartwheel
[x]Talked on the phone for more then 6 hours
[x] Stayed up all night
[ ] Didn’t take a shower for a week.
[x] Climbed a tree
[ ] Had a tree house
[ ] Are scared to watch scary movies
[ ] Worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
[ ] Played chicken
[ ] Pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
[ ] Been told you’re beautiful by a complete stranger (DAHAHHA It’s funny ‘cos I’m ugly.)
[x] Been easily amused
[ ] Caught a fish then ate it
[x] Caught a butterfly
[x]Laughed so hard you cried
[x] Cried so hard you laughed
[ ] Had someone moon/flash you
[x] Cheated on a test
[ ] Had a Britney Spears CD
[x] Forgotten someone’s name
[ ] French braided someone’s hair
[ ] Grown a beard

And brownies. And cupcakes. And various other baked goods.

I am oh-so-tired from baking all night. Seriously. I baked ALL NIGHT LONG.
I started at 9, after finishing my homework.
It is now almost one-thirty and I’m not done.

Jaysus.

My feet hurt, my arms and shoulders hurt, my head hurts, my finger hurts from where I burned it. Deep down, I know it’s worth it. Everything’s worth it. All the little tiny sacrifices we make throughout the day, be it giving someone directions and taking a little longer to get somewhere, or spending a week of free time organizing a charity event… It’s all worth it.

Just have to keep remembering that.

Thursday was an okay day. The bit with the NOT BEING ALLOWED TO GET THE BATTER was rather irritating. Music, CAN FINALLY MAINTAIN UPPER OCTAVE FOR GOOD DEAL OF TIME. BAPBAP. (Shush.) Bio was nondescript, left feeling stupid as usual. Talked to Ms. Houghton during break. Anthro was Ghost with Jahmal and winning the bet and POCKY…
“Why are you taking like, five?”
“BECAUSE IT’S GOOD.”
Spare was looking for music with Louis and then FIRE DRILL WTF. SO COLD. T-SHIRT. I THINK I HAVE DISEASES FROM BEING SO COLD.
After school was nuts.
Appy polly loggies to the girl I yelled at for getting caught on my backpack. Half day. Spent my time going about procuring ingredients for the darn bake sale. BECAUSE WE WEREN’T ALLOWED TO GO AND GET THE BATTER. Dmph dmph. (noise of annoyance)
Dance class was… um… unleashing my inner cowgirl. (In case you didn’t know, my class is doing a routine to Jessica Simpson’s cover of “These Boots Were Made For Walkin’”. We have hats.

Came home, did homework, baked.

Am now utterly exhausted and sore in the shoulders and going to bed.

Goodnight.

ATTN Concert Choir: STFU.

-Throws martini glass at wall, where it promptly shatters-

SERIOUSLY. Oh my freaking gosh. It’s getting insanely annoying. Like, I want to just get one giant hand and hit everyone.

This is why we’re doing easy, boring, non-challenging pieces. This is why the senior members and those who joined choir for the love of music are getting annoyed and reluctant to show up. This is why everyone’s complaining about how bad we are.

Just whose fault do we think that is?

IT’S OURS. It’s the fault of the choir as a whole, or to be more specific the large portion of the choir who is unfocused, who shows up late for rehearsal, who ignores Ms. Houghton’s instructions, who doesn’t practise, and who talks whenever his or her section is not singing. It’s these people who are dragging our choir down.

I know that a lot of you are only in the choir because you took vocal, but that does NOT mean you distract and annoy the people who are here because they love music and love to sing! You’re taking away from the group. And to those of you who complain about rehearsals and are only there because your friends are there or because you want to go on the trip and don’t sing anyway: If you don’t like it, get out. Leave. The door is RIGHT THERE. We can save money on photocopying your music, maybe put it towards music or folders or something. Something beneficial.

We can do better than ‘Jingle Bells’.

We seriously have the potential to be SO MUCH better than we are, but we’re not. We’re stuck doing lame, easy pieces because we haven’t shown we’re focused and dedicated enough to do so. It is NOT necessary to talk about random stuff while Ms. H is talking to another section. THAT IS WHAT THE TIME BEFORE AND AFTER REHEARSAL IS FOR. Just because Ms. Houghton isn’t rehearsing your section doesn’t mean you’re not being rehearsed. This is when you listen to other parts to see where yours fits in! This is where you go over your part (IN YOUR HEAD) to further solidify it! This is when you circle things that need to be practised! THIS IS NOT WHEN YOU TALK TO THE PERSON NEXT TO YOU ABOUT WHAT YOU HAD FOR LUNCH! IT IS IRRELEVANT AND DETRIMENTAL TO THE CHOIR AS A WHOLE.

So sit down, SHUT UP, and LISTEN. FOCUS. You just might learn something.

Stollen from Shannon

1. initials:
KLAW

2. name someone with the same birthday as you:
Jesus. Leila.

3. where was your first kiss?
In the middle of a field. -_-

4. for or against same sex marriages?
For.

5. are you homophobic?
Clearly not.

6. are you bisexual?
Only on Thursdays.

7. do you believe in God?
Mmhrm. Think so.

8. do u consider yourself a scenester?
Scha?

9. How many of the provinces have you lived in?
One.

10. Have you ever lived outside Canada?
Jamaica.

11. Name something you like physically about yourself:
My eyes. My lips. My ears. My hands.

12. name something physical you dont like about yourself:
My being hideous?

13. where do you want to go to university/college?
Queens, Western, Ottawa, or Ryerson.

14. what is your dream car?
Lime green/purple tricked-out Smart Car.

15. if you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Right now? Madrid. Or Caen or Normandy or Paris.

16. have you ever had someone of the opposite sex over at your house while your parents were gone?
Nope

17. how many concerts have you gone to?
….I’ve preformed in a bunch, but can’t remember the last I’ve actually been audiencing it up. Prolly TSO. So one that I recall.

18. do you download music?
Not really.

19. how many illegal things have you done?
Hmm…………..4? But only minor.

20. where would you want to go on a first date?
Hrmm… Art gallery. Walk in park. Crazy Downtown Subway Adventure.

21. has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
“I wrote you a remix!” Umm.. other than the remix(Miss you, Bri!)… Evan wrote a song for my French Horn in grade 8 during his brief stint on trombone(Complicated pastry!). Bassman wrote a song for my bassoon. No one’s ever written ME a song. But my instruments are totally different

23. ever been kissed under fireworks?
*blushes* Yesh.

24. do you like president bush?
Yeah, but then he had to go and complicate things by sleeping with my best friend. Seriously? No idea.

25. have you ever bungee jumped?
Nope.

26. have you ever white-water rafted?
No.

27. have you ever crashed a car?
No.

28. has anyone more than 10 years older than you hit on you?
ONLY people more than 10 years older than me hit on me. I don’t get it. No one gets it.

29. have you met a real redneck?
Like…. “This be mah wife, Cousin Betty Sue”? Nope.

30. are you interested in anyone right now?
*looks around* Shhh.

31. what music are you listening to right now?
Greasy-haired screamo boys on my TV.

32. what is your current favorite song?
*This is what happens when I care.

33. what was the last movie you watched?
*falls over* umm…Aw, man… Cannot remember.

34. who was the last person you said you loved?
San Fransisco! But then again, I am fifteen and therefore have no feelings.

35. where was the last place you went besides your house?
School/TKD

36. have you ever seriously vandalized someone elses property?
*is about to confess big tings* I keyed someone’s car. Nothing too huge but I was pissed.

37. have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
What do you think?

38. have you ever sang in front of a large number of people?
Choir solos. Stuff like that.

39. whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Hands (I like me my musicians, leave me be.), voice, eyes/brows/eyelashes. Hair. What instrument they play

40. what really turns you on in a guy?
A nice voice? Like… not necessarily singing voice but just…a good voice. Good/strong hands. Adventurousnessosity. <~(Too many suffix!)

41. what do you usually order from starbucks?
*goes off on huge rant about megacorporations turning us into corporate robots*

42. what is your biggest mistake?
Not sure. I make so many of them.

43. have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
Er…NEXT.

44. say something totally random about you:
I can read palms/tea leaves.

45. do you have an i-pod?
No.

46. has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
BAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHA.

47. do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Psh, yeah.

48. do you have braces?
No, but people ask if I have had them.

49. are you comfortable with your height?
Yeah. We’re cool.

51. when do you know its love?
I DON’T. I am fifteen and therefore do not have feelings.

52. do you speak any other languages besides English?
French, Spanish (understand better than speak)

53. have you ever been to a tanning salon?
Have you SEEN me? Do I NEED to be anywhere near a tanning booth? (In case you’re an internet stalker, I happen to be Black.)

54. what magazines do you read?
Depends on my mood.

55. are these surveys stupid?
If they were, would I be doing them? DON’T ANSWER THAT.

56. do you have a hidden talent?
Yup =)

57. have you gone farther than kissing?
I am unauthorized to divulge this information at the present time.

58. have you ever ridden in a limo?
YES.

60. do you watch mtv?
Nope.

61. whats something that really annoys you?
Being told I can’t do something that I clearly CAN do.

62. whats something you really like?
Flowers? Spikes? String? Pocky?

63. do you like michael Jackson?
Nah. Liked ‘Smooth Criminal’, though.

64. can you dance?
Jazz? Yeah.

65. have you ever surfed?
Nope.

66. do you know how to pump gas?
Yup.

67. can you drive a car?
Yup! Down the street and back

68. whats the latest you have ever stayed up?
All night. Lessn’ you count when I went to bed at 7AM

69. have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
See below with beesting. Also, horrid and vile allergic reaction this summer.

70. were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
Yup! Grade 9, stung by bee, anyphylactic shock.

71. have you ever been dared to do something you didn’t want to do?
Yup. I actually find Truths harder.

72. did you do it?
Yup.

73. do you actually read these when other people fill them out?
Yup.

~~~~~
In other news, fundraising pickup stuff was today. Spend second half of day in Music room. Fun times. I adopted a cardboard box. His name was Jimmy.

I showed Omar:
“This is Jimmy.”
“Hello Jimmy”
“The box.”
“Oh, I thought you meant the leash”
“No, the leash’s name is Stu.”

I showed Melinda:
“This is Jimmy”
“*KICK*”
“YOU’RE HURTING HIM”
“I’m sorry, Jimmy!”
“Haha, you’re apologising to a box.”

I showed Jesse:
“This is Jimmy”
“*is unable to talk due to confused laughter*

Gooood times. Random laugh fits. Omar being failure. Idiot races. Yup.

Time for bed.

“We be burnin’ not concernin’ what nobody wanna say”

Why do you build me up (build me up) buttercup, baby
Just to let me down and mess me around
And then worst of all you never call, baby
When you say you will but i need you still
I need you more than anything, darlin’
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up) buttercup, don’t break my heart

Aah, good old-fashioned “dance around room like idiot” music.

Nothing to say. Back later.

(it is slightly later) My head hurts. I fell into my chair

Again, will be back later.

It is much more than slightly later.

TYCW REHEARSAL… Pure hilarity. I love my CWs.
UNCLE NICK CAME TO VISIT. He’s my favourite…
U.N.: “TDSB Youth Concert Band… If it’s TDSB, that implies youth. It’s not like there’s gonna be a TDSB Old People Band…”
K: “TDSB OCTOGENARIAN CONCERT BAND!”
U.N.: “A bunch of eighty-yar olds playing instruments and…soiling themselves… That’s what they do, you know.”

And I played bassoon in rehearsal…
“*plays bunch of notes, realizes it’s a solo, stops* Umm… ’bout that.”
Yesh. I guess I’m playing bassoon permanently. Weirdness. Strange lovesick moose honking noises. I heart my bassoon, but can’t swab it properly.
“Why are you putting a pimp chain in your instrument?” ~T.M.

After rehearsal… Loblaws, sushi, bottled milk with Jimmish and Danish. Yeah… We’re now Kimmish, Jimmish, and Danish… Because Dana wouldn’t let us call her Danish otherwise.

And now I am home. And now I am tired. And now I do work. Ciao, bellas!

I’ve been trying not to swear as much. It hasn’t been working out too well.

I’ve been living off of strawberry-kiwi juice boxes and whole-wheat rasin bread this week. No time to cook >< Study study study and I fail the fsking bio test anyway =|

I’m very cold and tired and wholly pissed off.

I have an urge to smash things to see how they break. Been growing more restless, more irritable. Need to run around and yell and jump and shout and just expunge all this energy before I POP like a human balloooon.

“*in style similar to Lil’ Jon* WHAT?!”

Man, I’ve been weird lately. And REALLY off my game, chess-wise. I’ve got this freaky sort of energy bubbling right under my skin…I can’t sit still.

And now off to dance about like a nutbar.

Things Kim Can’t Do # 30: Hold her liquor.

Aah…what a fun fun yesterday. I’m feeling slightly guilty for no good reason, but at least I feel human again. Trick-or-treating/random house with Leila, Sophie, Shannont et Ken. Was hung over next morning. Fun fun fun for the whole family.

That was the best four days EVAR.

Commencement/Super Tacha Sleepover Friday. Commencement was enh… Lost Tacha then found her, and we went to my house which I mentioned.
Concert Saturday. Went to Grace Church-On-The-Hill, rehearsal (”WEIRD KID KEEPS STEALING MY MUSIC.”), chilling with T.M., Tacha, Steve, Dana, various others. Concert rocked the socks off of everyone. Free fortune cookies. Drama to the max. Gossip circle. Yorkdale Sunday. Crazy running around trying to find people. VOOOOOOOLLLLLCAAAANNNOOOO! (”brup brup! Yeye!”) Being afraid of Tracy Tree. Ordering one appetizer for all of us. Late Tacha. DDR. Indigo Bookstore. Free day pass.
Hallowe’en Monday. Trick-Or-Treating. Quartet/beatboxing. Chilling at some random guy’s house.

Tuesday: Hangover. Biology. Anthro. Art Club. Being horribly sad/guilty and not knowing quite why.

Almost makes me forget how SCREWED I am in French. Wait, NO IT DOESN’T.

Hopefully the next few things will bring my mark up. And if that doesn’t work I’ll have to get a tutor, peer or otherwise. Anyway, must work on philosophy. =\